Any Port in a Storm

Yesterday I had a port for venous access put in my chest near my collar bone. It is so the chemo drugs don't destroy the veins in my arms since they are so toxic. It also allows for blood draws so I don't have to be stuck a million times! This procedure was supposed to be a walk in the park. NOT! After the procedure, I was in the recovery area and my surgeon came out and said, "Boy are you in good shape!" I looked at her oddly and said "Thanks". She then explained that I have so much muscle in my chest that she had a very hard time inserting the port, she tried to thread it through my neck (which is now killing me) to no avail. She went back in through the first incision and went toward my shoulder to thread it through and it went in. As a result, I feel like I have been beaten up. Everyone told me that this would be a simple, virtually pain feel procedure. I guess all the people I know who have a port in don't have well developed chest muscles. Go figure, the hundreds of flys I have done have come back to bite me in the ass.

I know I shouldn't complain because this complication is nothing compared to other people but if I didn't tell you about it then I wouldn't be truly documenting my journey, would I? Things will be better tomorrow!

Pissed off!

I guess it's just a stage in life and I know right now the problem is a stage.

My stage 3. Could be worse I guess and most people with this type of BC begin at stage 3, why should I be any different. After waiting many agonizing days I finally got the results of my PETT Scan, I have no vital organ involvment, that is a really good thing, I do have the lymph nodes under my arm involved and one in my neck and chest are not caner, yet but are fighting it off.

I am pissed because everything with these doctors is hurry up and wait. This is the only profession that I know of that gets away with such inefficiency on a regular basis and I should know I have worked in the medical profession for a long time.

I know I should stop complaining but I won't because that is exactly why I started this blog so I could whine, bitch, holler and express any other emotion I have, if you don't like it tough shit! (I told you I was pissed off!!)

I promise next post I will be more myself!

No So Amazing Journey

.....But it will be a journey none the less. I will find out what I am made of so I guess in the end I will learn about myself.

Two weeks ago, I was a healthy 40 year old woman. On June 12th, I found out I have cancer. Funny thing is, I am still a healthy 40 year old woman. I feel like I could run a marathon, good thing because I am about to start one, so to speak. I have Inflammatory Breast Cancer of the left breast. I had two rather severe breast injuries over the past seven months and was misdiagnosed with fat necrosis until I went to see a PA at my doctors office, I didn't like the changes I was seeing and neither did she so we both grabbed the bull by the horns and got some answers. It has been a whirlwind! I went from doctors appointment, to MRI, to breast surgeon, to biopsy to definitive diagnosis in two weeks time, imagine the shit storm that is going on in my head!

I am blogging about this for my own sanity and to give those who are interested and care about me an update. I am told this is a rare form or breast cancer that often goes misdiagnosed but it is very treatable and I have every intention of getting better. I am not looking for medical advice from people or stories of other peoples fight, I appreciate it but I do not want to know what happened to your Aunt Tilly when she had breast cancer 15 years ago. I am putting 100% faith in the doctors I have selected and I am giving myself to them fully so I can get better. I have a great support system at home but I think this is a good way to keep up with all the friends I have met through the various blogs and boards I take part in. Your love, prayers and support are truly appreciated.

If you are interested, you can come back here to see what is going on with me and where I am in my treatment process. Feel free to comment and send positive energy my way, thanks in advance for all your support.